Sometimes stubborn wins out over common sense. This can be
good- make you dig deeper, push past your limit and go harder and longer than
ever before. It can also be bad- leave you dependent on port-a-potty after port-a-potty...
With the week leading up to the race I should have known it was not the time to
choose stubborn but I wanted no excuses and leave nothing to regret.
Augusta HIM beat me down a few years ago. The heat hurt me
like I have never experienced. It also left me wanting revenge. A course that
was designed for speed and played to my strengths was not about to win
because of the conditions, NO WAY!! Well in realty…YES WAY!
(No Way!! Yes Way!!!)
On a business trip the week before the race, my boss gave me
the plague. Attempting to alleviate it as quick as possible, Monday I jumped on the antibiotic/prednisone
bandwagon that is typically avoided. 5 days of Prednisone, 10 days of antibiotics,
mixed with Mucinex-D and drinking constantly to the point I could pee on
demand. I was sure I would kick it. Not the case. Race morning came and
although I didn’t feel 100%, I was still certain I could get close to my goals.
Even if we came up a little short, it would be a win and I would have my revenge
on Augusta.
Two key notes: Chris called me the night before- we went
over everything. It made me calm. It gave me confidence. It was an important
piece. The second- my friend Jim text me early that day: “race with your heart”
That stayed with me. All the way through.
The plan: go out hard, get in the lead group, settle in and
draft.
The reality: went out hard, got in the lead group, couldn’t breath,
backstroked the rest of the way. The amount of snot I swallowed may have lead
to a demise further in the race but only a doctor could confirm. Haha!
Time: 26:05
Bike:
The plan: Attack! This is where we wanted to have some fun.
Burn some matches, recover, burn a couple more. This didn’t go way off target.
It was slower than expected as my breathing was more snotting than anything but
all in all, I didn’t feel too bad and was pretty ok with my time. I eased up
the last 3k to get my legs ready to run and come into transition recovered.
Where I did mess up was nutrition. My peanut butter sandwich stayed in my back until I chucked it at the last trash drop. Pretty sure I should have eaten it and I am completely done with Infinit. Custome blend or not, it makes my stomach turn.
Where I did mess up was nutrition. My peanut butter sandwich stayed in my back until I chucked it at the last trash drop. Pretty sure I should have eaten it and I am completely done with Infinit. Custome blend or not, it makes my stomach turn.
Time: 2:34
Run:
The plan: Go out running the first mile at a decent pace, ease off into race pace, lay it all on the
line the last 10k.
The reality: My legs weren’t there. It seemed to take
forever getting out of transition and onto the street. My stomach was gurgling
and my mind immediately went to telling myself, “it’s not hot, you are feeling
fine, burry that shit and get your ass back into the race!” So I pressed on.
The first aid station I took in water, coke, water and grabbed some ice. The
weather was perfect but I was hot. Why? No idea. My legs were starting to come
back but my stomach starting feeling worse. I thought if I can just make it to
the ATC tent, I will get the cheers and support I need to pick it up. That trek
seemed to last forever and my stomach was not having it. I stopped at a port-a-potty
right around mile 2. Feeling much better I trekked on! Seeing the tent ahead,
Lewis, my wife, Robin and the other spectathletes, I was pumped!! My stomach-
it needed pumped. :P Down to the turn around and another port-a-potty stop. The plan continued
at each rest stop. The last big pump came from my friend Bergin. She drove down
from Pittsburgh to race. She yelled to me on the run and I asked if she hit her
goals- she screamed “YES!!!” I was so excited for her I got chills and for a
few minutes all the sick went away!! (Proud of you Bergin!!) Even though I knew
my race was long gone, my pace steadily increased and my mind/heart was in it.
This made me extremely happy! This is what’s been missing for the last two
years and again- the ATC, Time Warner, my coach, my friends, my wife- they
brought it back. “Fuck the time! Fuck my stomach! I will not stop running!”
Slow, fast, I didn’t give a shit…well actually I gave a few…but if my feet were
moving it was a jog, not a walk. My mind was in it!!
Time: 2:00:42
T3- I crossed the line with Lewis, instantly handed back to
Tami and sat down. Then I lay down. Then I curled up into a ball. Then I spent
the next 2.5 hours either in a ball on the ground or in the port-a-potty.
Perhaps I should have listened to my body and stopped. My coach said its one
thing to feel like that if you win- justifiable, but not for this. Perhaps. But
as I think about the drive that wouldn’t let me stop I’m happy its back. I
never want to feel that way again. It’s a day later and I still feel like hell
but its one step closer to putting it all together. Having the urge to go is a
better outcome than I could have hoped for.